Happy New Year everyone!!! I hope you all had a good chrissie I had a good one got lots of nice presents from my brothers and parents

Christmas and new year were a bit of a disaster intake wise though, i had my whole family home for about two weeks straight and my mother fed me pretty much the whole time. Today however she has gone back to work properly which means i'm now free to eat as little as i want! Yay!! I have actually been pretty good since new year, i've managed to keep my intake low most days except for when mum surprises me with dinner when i get home like last night after dancing, now that she's back at work though she'll be too tired to cook which means that i'll have to do it which means i can cook it before i go to dancing or wherever and tell her that i already ate mine before i left and i won't have to have any I also haven't had any chocolate, chips or wheat (bread, pasta cake etc) at all so far this year...i know it's only been like 5 dys or whatever but still it feels good

On wednesday I go away for two and a half weeks with work it's gonna be great! i'll finally get to do some of my training which means i'll get paid more plus it'll be a good chance to further cement some good eating habits cos i'll be with a whole heap of people i don't know so i'll be super stressed about eating in front of them which will mean i'll eat less and mostly healthy stuff There will also be a gym on base so i'll be able to go there and wok out everyday after i've finished work

Stay strong and think thin

 

 

oh. my. god. panic stations! I'm going to wet'n'wild on saturday with some friends which is a huge theme park on the gold coast and which means that i'm gonna have to wear togs which is a disaster!! There's gonna be heaps of super skinny girls there walking around in their tiny little bikini's and then there's gonna be me looking like a huge ass whale. Ugh! I'm gonna wear a t-shirt and shorts over my togs so that i don't scare any little children. I'm gonna have to pile on the sunscreen too so that i don't burn to a crisp. I'm going to do a liquid fast this week to prepare for my day of torture. It's all gonna be water and coke zero for me this week. Luckily i'll be pretty much flat out everynight this week so i'll be able to avoid my parents and they won't get suspicious and they can't make me eat. I so need to move out. If I had my own place I wouldn't have this problem.

my weekend was pretty crap intake wise. i regained 1.5 (3.3) of the 3.5 kg (7.7 lbs)  i'd lost over the week. so not happy jan. hopefully this liquid fast will take care of it quickly though.

 

 

so i've been trying to be 'healthy' lately, you know fighting the urge to starve myself and all of that and it sooo doesn't work, it's all bullshit. i haven't lost any weight and i feel worse now than ever before. i went out with a whole group of people from dancing last night and most of the girls were all so skinny and gorgeous and i felt so disgusting and having seen some of  the photos taken of me by my friends i just wanna throw up. this time last year i was doing so well and so now i am determined to get back there. I am going to regain my self control and soon people will start commenting on my weight loss again. here is a picture of me...i'm the fattie in the glasses...not that you really needed me to tell you that cos it's obvious which one i am